Please please let this be real for once.
You made me understand what love meant. Not in that way. But just love.
Full circle is hearing our old song live to know I’m better off without you.
Maybe had I accepted that offer, I’d be in a different place. Maybe we’d be a thing. Maybe I’d be ruling that world with you. Maybe I’d be in California this September. Maybe I’d have a real college experience.
But then my life wouldn’t be what it is now.
It’s always crazy to me how people expect me to stop what I’m doing to either listen or help them out, but when it comes to a dire need even at the slightest, they’re let downs. Always.
And then they wonder why I don’t stick my neck out the same way I do for other people. Because. You’re. Doing. It. Wrong.
I still think that the future holds something with us together. And until then, I’ll wait.
I get to work a record I actually love and I haven’t been this excited since this exact spot last year. Let’s do it.
Please, let this be exactly what I need.
One day, we’ll rule the world together. I promise you that.
Note to public: you never play games with the one who will destroy you at your own game.
Maria. 21. NYC via FL.